frail

It is so much easier to say "your will be done" when you are young and have no pressing bills or debts outstanding. It is so much easier to say it when you are in the same place as you have always been, and that place is safe and secure and home. It is so much easier to say it when you have no intention of sacrificing your will for His. When it means something completely unsure and unpredicted. It is hardest to say when you saw a road that called itself God's will, and there would be nothing morally wrong with it, but it just.. wasn't, and never was, God's path for you.I long fear that someone will have to change their entire person and jump into a pool of all things uncomfortable when their life is under God's control. I am what I am. Do not try and change that. I grow so tired of excuses.

And that is the predicament- but I am no great speaker, but I cannot lead, but I cannot be sacrificed quietly for Your name, I cannot live alone, I cannot give up a friend- - baggage, baggage, baggage, like Abraham's father dragged half-way around Mesopotamia.

' If I was not so weak, if I was not so cold, If I was not so scared of being broken, and growing old, I would be frail. '