10.1.09
i utterly absolutely despise schooling right now. i could die. i can't focus. it keeps haunting me and what good is a perfect mark? i should walk. it's freezing cold and i should walk. i want to leave. i want to go somewhere warm where water moves instead of building up bricks around you. why? the cold is beautiful. sometimes it is so so ugly. the heat is beautiful. and sometimes it has a hideousness about it. no matter what i eat, i still feel hungry. no matter how i focus i can't perform. no matter how much i think or write i always end up in this same chair on the glass floor.
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- Liza Cain
- east of eden
- the only strand of communication between brother, sister, companion, lover, hater, observer is a two line telegram.
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you need to pray, then talk to people you trust about these feelings - people without bias, and not ignore them. sometimes they are telling you something. remember you can always transfer, change your major, etc.
one thing about university is that it is never a dead end or a narrow path. oh, i need to talk to you! so many unsure things. but life is an adventure, at least, even if a bloody difficult one.
"and not ignore them. something they are telling you something"
i.e. your feelings
hahahaa i reread this, thinking i hadnt read it before, then saw my comments.... oh man.
I just saw these comments. Wow.
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